My Facebook has turned into BabyBook...

Has anyone else been experiencing this recently?

Oye...and I thought it was bad about two years ago when every week seemed like a new pregnancy announcement...NOW!!! Every week is: "my baby's turning one", "new family photos", "I'm pregnant", "baby #2 is almost here", "found out we are having a girl!", "our daughter is going to be a big sister"...wow...so, what you're saying is that I not only got left in the dust with the first (and some people's second) round of baby bumps, but now the second round is about to pop also? so now two kids and on to the third...???

Ya, as if I didn't feel like every AF I get was another missed opportunity, or another month prolonged before I'd hold a baby of my own...but now it feels like everything else is speading forward and progressing, and I'm standing still. Not much has changed for DH and I in the last few years...sure, we've matured, and we have experienced and been through ALOT!  But, every step we take forward, we seem to take at least one back...  Yes, yes...I can hear your thoughts now (I've heard it all before): "it's just not your time", "your time is not necessarily everyone elses timing", "it'll happen", "you're still young", "maybe you're just hitting it wrong", "now probably isn't the best time anyway..."

...well, honestly, do you REALLY think any of that is helpful???  Do you REALLY think that I am not in enough agony to be trying to convince myself of all those things to make it better???  AND! Do you REALLY think that saying "now's probably not the best time" makes me want a child, and to be a mother, and to make my husband a father any less???

I have heard this from alot of people lately (mostly people with other forms of cancer), that it is wonderful that Breast Cancer has broken free of taboo. That awareness is everywhere! That there isn't just a nationally recognized awareness month, but that EVERYTHING turns pink during October, showing the support from so many reputable companies all over the world.  But what about the rest of us?  I have a dear high school friend who's sister has AngioSarcoma. A VERY rare and very agressive cancer. What about her? They have no awareness month...searching for it on google turns up almost nothing...I found a comment someone made on a site about the ribbon being yellow with a sunflower on it, but found NOTHING else to support that......how do you think they feel seeing the sea of pink in October? (even if you are a girl that likes pink)

Well, I do not have a life threatening illness...so after that last paragraph it seems trivial to even type this...but I feel a small fraction of that exclusion. What about infertility???  Infertility IS still taboo! I have almost no one that I can talk to about what I am feeling, or going through...or how depressed I am or how my heart is aching.  I know now it's no longer an issue of me being too secretive about it. I have worked really hard over the last year to not belittle the issue, to talk openly about it, to share with our family about where we are at...and here we stand. PCOS (being that it is an actual physical condition that seems more tangible) has a ribbon...it's teal. September is PCOS awareness month. Well, that is at least part of my problem, but infertility in general just seemed to get lumped with it...and would you have known that TEAL was the awareness color last month if I hadn't said something???

...between facebook over the last two-three months, and the widespread discussion of breast cancer awareness saturating the "awareness" of the public...I have felt exceedingly like a person standing in a room screaming...standing still...the whole world flying by me...and I can barely move...